lately my life has been pretty much the following sequence of events whenever i am not teaching. i was going to put that in quotes but i guess i actually do teach now.












this was the first time in a long time there has been a camera along with me. i guess i always have one on my phone but i never use it. everyone else in the pictures i met for the first time that night. i found a balloon in my underwear when i got home. is this healthy?? im not sure anymore.

i dont even remember how to do a cut on here. sorry if this takes up space.

lets go start something. respect the aged day is tomorrow!

well howdy how livejournal.

as i am approaching my departure from youtube with a bang, i had a chance to see how my life has changed in just a short time. i went on a field trip with the school i work at now and we ran into people from the old school i used to work at and it all seemed odd. one person tried to talk to me and before i had a chance to say much something happened and she was gone. im sure there will be gossip all over the place by tomorrow. i'll probably get an email.

between the ages of 24 and 26 so much has happened and most of it i never thought would.

here is a non-exhaustive list in no particular order

go drinking with rock bands
buy a mac
be accidentally invited to an orgy
see naked men from the train
get to wear a pass at a concert and go wherever i want to
date a prostitute
weight lift by choice


i guess it's ironic (?) that the song i'm using to say goodbye to my internet life for the most part has the kind of content that it does. i originally just picked it because i liked the beat and the video made me so upset that that kind of shit was being passed on as real promotional content not aimed at moms. some 14 year old online told me i should make my own if i thought it was so bad, so i did.

someone stopped at my place the other day to watch a porn. it was one of those odd japanese things where the girl's face was blocked out but you could see everything on the guy that is legally showable here. he told me that i had aged. i know he's right but i don't know if he was talking about how i act or how i look. based on what my hair currently looks like, it could probably be either one. i'm getting it cut on saturday.

seeing the people that i spent 2 1/2 years working with but not really knowing made me start to think about what my life is actually going to turn into. i bought some socks at uni-qlo and it was too nice of a night to take the bus home so i had plenty of time to think on the walk home. i used to think that everything bad from america actually worked on me at some hyper-extent that i made myself such a fucking special individual that i self ejected myself from the system. maybe. but i really don't want a car or a house or a family. i'm fine with what i have. i don't have a microwave or a yard or even a bed, but i'm fine with it. five years ago i'm sure it'd bother me.

in japan, people often dress like they are some kind of star even if they are just a housewife or garbageman or something not particularly star-like. i guess i have picked up on some of those habits, but if i'm going to be walking around in shoes that sparkle, i want my life to sparkle too.

polishing starts....now.